A father, who knew he was dying of cancer, wouldn't leave in peace if he is not fully convinced his children, age 5 and 1 will grow up right. He wrote this to them:


Be courteous, be punctual, always say please and thank you, and be sure to hold your knife and fork properly. Others take their cue on how to treat you from your manners.
Be kind, considerate and compassionate when others are in trouble, even if you have problems of your own. Others will admire your selflessness and will help you in due course.

Show moral courage. Do what is right, even if that makes you unpopular. I always thought it important to be able to look at myself in the shaving mirror every morning and not feel guilt or remorse. I depart this world with a pretty clear conscience.

Show humility. Stand your ground but pause to reflect on what the other side are saying, and back off when you know you are wrong. Never worry about losing face. That only happens when you are pig-headed.
Learn from your mistakes. You will make plenty so use them as a learning tool. If you keep making the same mistake or run into a problem, you’re doing something wrong.

Avoid disparaging someone to a third party; it is only you who will look bad. If you have a problem with someone, tell them face to face.

Hold fire! If someone crosses you, don’t react immediately. Once you say something it can never be taken back, and most people deserve a second chance.

Have fun. If this involves taking risks, so be it. If you get caught, hold your hands up.

Give to charity and help those who are less fortunate than yourselves: it’s easy and so rewarding.

Always look on the upside! The glass is half full, never half empty. Every adversity has a silver lining if you seek it out.

Make it your instinct always to say ‘yes’. Look for reasons to do something, not reasons to say no. Your friends will cherish you for that.

Be canny: you will get more of what you want if you can give someone more of what they desire. Compromise can be king.

Always accept a party invitation. You may not want to go, but they want you there. Show them courtesy and respect.

Never ever let a friend down. I would bury bodies for my friends, if they asked me to . . . which is why I have chosen them carefully.

Always tip for good service. It shows respect. But never reward poor service. Poor service is insulting.

Always treat those you meet as your social equal, whether they are above or below your station in life. For those above you, show due deference, but don’t be a sycophant.

Always respect age, as age equals wisdom.

Be prepared to put the interests of your sibling first.

Be proud of who you are and where you come from, but open your mind to other cultures and languages. When you begin to travel (as I hope you will), you’ll learn that your place in the world is both vital and insignificant. Don’t get too big for your breeches.

Be ambitious, but not nakedly so. Be prepared to back your assertions with craftsmanship and hard work.

Live every day to its full: do something that makes you smile or laugh, and avoid procrastination.

Give of your best at school. Some teachers forget that pupils need incentives. So if your teacher doesn’t give you one, devise your own.

Always pay the most you can afford. Never skimp on hotels, clothing, shoes, make-up or jewellery. But always look for a deal. You get what you pay for.

Never give up! My two little soldiers have no dad, but you are brave, big-hearted, fit and strong. You are also loved by an immensely kind and supportive team of family and friends. You make your own good fortune, my children, so battle on.

Never feel sorry for yourself, or at least don’t do it for long. Crying doesn’t make things better.

Look after your body and it will look after you.

Learn a language, or at least try. Never engage a person abroad in conversation without first greeting them in their own language; by all means ask if they speak English!

And finally, cherish your mother, and take very good care of her.

I love you both with all my heart.
Daddy x

The ironies of life

Have you ever wondered if your life is a joke?
Sometime I do think that life loves playing jokes on me.
Is it because I am now a easier target since I have become this 'davin' that is no longer known for anything.
Nothing evil and nothing too good.
Maybe ordinary people are easy targets.

One thing I learnt throughout my life; 'Treat people how you wanna be treated back'.
I find this statement very overrated at times.
I will spend a lot of time thinking how to behave well towards others.
I feel that I have done beyond my part as a son, brother, friend, boyfriend and etc to everyone around me.
I have never done anything against my conscience or even let anyone down.
I feel I have done a lot for the people around me, I feel obligated to do so because everyone around me are just simple thinking people.

But I never felt appreciated for the things I have done.
I used to give my best in everything I do for everyone, now I feel just doing what is right or a little beyond it is more than suffice. What's the point? NO POINT at all!

The saddest thing is that I have never, ever ask for anyone around me for anything. Anything at all.
I never demanded anyone to show me appreciation, nothing at all in reciprocate to what I have done.
But why is everyone letting me down?
When I have never done anything to let them down.

I am not over sensitive.
Its you guys who do not even spare a thought for me.
Being a little selfish and self centered is ok.
I understand that there are not many are like me who put others before myself.

But why treat me like this?
To punish me for my past?
Because the past 'davin' broke your heart in every way and let you down umpteen times?
This is the only reason I can think of to comfort myself, because that shouldn't be anymore reason for that.
But ain't it enough?
The current 'davin' have took so so so much effort and pain to be what he is today, he has undergo so much of punishments from others and from life itself.
Everyone just remembers him for his past, but he was so young at that time.
Why not give him the treatment he deserves for the things he have done in recent years?

Sigh.
It ain't gonna happen, not everyone bothers or see the need to change.
I wish I will not reach to a point where I just stop and give up doing anything.


It ain't easy, to be me.

Seeing us standing there under the shimmering moonlight
While it dances around the velvet sky,
it illuminates my soul.
It all felt like a dream
And I have dreamed of this a thousand times before
Like in my dreams, I couldn't love you more

Even when the sun refused to shine
and when romance ran out of rhyme
I promise that you would still have my heart
until the end of time
You're all i need, my love, my Valentine.

this world is getting really lazy.
been hearing complaints abt every possible things.
I'm stressed n tired of work/school/etc.
wth?! there are many ppl who have to do house hold chores when they get home or have to look after a sick one.
what attention seeking ppl these ppl are.
disgusting.

It feels so lonely tonight
just like the other 5 days a week
less saturday.
But its not just the night that
loneliness creeps in.
It begins to feel like its the whole day.
I need to concentrate on studying
so my mind wont wander around.
and gets lonely in the end.